Agreed.

So this sorta depression thing I'm going through has sorta stopped, I'm way happier now But still not myself.

My dad took me to see Katie's grave a few days ago (which I haven't seen since her funeral) and I had a major breakdown. I cried so much I couldn't stand.. Which is a challenge anyways because my leg is injured.After that I sorta felt acceptance and like.. I could move on.

Yesterday was my friend Parker's 19th birthday, we got so wasted. We stole Rum and a fireball mickey from his parents room and we went to the park, I had 7 shots of rum and 4 shots of the Fireball's.... Dude I couldn't see straight and my speech was UBER slurred. We eventually got hungry so we went to this Jewish bakery down the street, Parker was yelling "I want a ham and cheese sanwich" which is funny because Jewish peeps (yeah I just said peeps) don't eat pig (or whatever) so we went to 7 11 and had what he called "panini's" but... They were ham and chesse sanwiches ¬.¬

It took us like 2 hours to walk like 5 blocks, Parker kept falling over and telling us he needed to sit down for 10 minutes. We were too drunk to go home so we stayed in a cheap hotel underneath the Burrard St. Bridge. Parker sat in the washroom and he told us stories.. Stupid stories, but we found them fucking hilarious in the hotel... But then he started repeating the stories... And it got annoying. The next morning we went to Denny's and got free brekkie. We were all to sick to eat it, but c'mon it's free. I must've goten home at around 7:00.. I had a 2 hour sleep. So I'm pretty tierd. 

Anyways, there's alot more to it.. I had to leave some out (too graphic for your virgin ears)

I've been sitting around, moping. I may be healing, but my heart isn't. I dont know. maybe I'm just emo. So, I'm getting better. Like, alot. I can type really well, and my bones in my hand are doing really good. The joints hurt alot, but I've got meds for that, and usually I'm asleep. And, I can actually type with two hands now. The pain's getting duller. I'm not supposed to. But, I dont care if my fingers grow back crooked or whatever.

 As alot of you know, I was recently a passenger in a fatal car accident, and I'm having a really hard time coping with the fact that the love of my life has left me, and everyone else, forever. I will try to keep you all updated with my progress as I heal, but if you have any questions about the accident, dont hesitate to ask. I would really appreciate it if you didn't ask if I was single or anything. I am single but not ready for another relationship. Anyways, online dating is bullshit.